i wanna be haunted
i wanna be loved
i want a lot of friends and
a lot of drugs
i wanna be haunted
i won’t leave my bed
i won’t go crazy and
i won’t get sad
so haunt me haunt me haunt me ooo
i wanna be haunted
i wanna be loved
i want a lot of friends and
a lot of drugs
i wanna be haunted
i won’t leave my bed
i won’t go crazy and
i won’t get sad
so haunt me haunt me haunt me ooo
Wherever you go, I’m not gonna follow
We’re not on the same side of things anymore
I’m not gonna hide
but honey, you better
Get on a bus go downtown
Get a life
And the boys that hear you sobbing— don’t give a shit
I don’t know what I’m searching for— but I know that you’re not it
Where have you been all my life?— so I know where you can stay
I don’t know what I want anymore— I just want you to go away
Oh I’ve seen so much better
What is with these times? They’ve done me so wrong
Well, I’m not gonna hide
but honey you better
Get on a bus go downtown
Get a life
And the boys that hear you sobbing— don’t give a shit
I don’t know what I’m searching for— but I know that you’re not it
Where have you been all my life?— so I know where you can stay
I don’t know what I want anymore— I just want you to go away
(Source: lovelybadthings.bandcamp.com)
fuck all of my friends
fuck every last one of them
I have nothing in common with anyone
and I have no one I can depend on
I swear I’m not as insane
as this small town can make me seem
lonely drunk and deranged
stop fucking up things need to change
and I can’t believe this is happening
it seems like everyone is out to get me
goddammit it’s sickening
my own dreams are killing me
I swear I’m not as insane
as this small town can make me seem
lonely drunk and deranged
stop fucking up things need to change
(Source: museummouth.bandcamp.com)
Sorry I am lost again in my galaxy
Aurora Borealis is the kitchen light to me
Scientists and solar beams pave a way with ketamine
I am only in a dream, yes I am only in a dream
(Source: alligatorindian.bandcamp.com)
Škótsko // 7. december // Deň #086
Dni plynú a ja ani poriadne nevnímam, aký je deň v týždni. Dnes bol piatok a ani som o tom nevedel, keby som nepočul vonku typické piatkové zvuky opitých študentov. Sedím v izbe, čítam si, pozerám filmy a píšem si s kamarátmi. Dnes som aj viac kecal so spolubývajúcimi, lebo sme sa nejak naraz stretli v kuchyni, tak aspoň som si trochu precvičil angličtinu. Zistil som, že meniť z angličtiny do slovenčiny mi nerobí vôbec problémy. Môžem si písať s niekym po slovensky a vo vedľajšom okne mať otvorenú konverzáciu s niekym z Ameriky. Triedil som dnes knihy a chystal ich do balíka, ktorý v pondelok pošlem na Slovensko. Som zvedavý, či príde skôr ako ja, ale dúfam, že áno. Na start-tracku som dnes mal špeciálny post k mojej obľúbenej skupine Teen Suicide, ktorý sa nedávno rozpadli: http://start-track.com/post/37387748654/teen-suicide-hymns Hudba je pre mňa veľmi dôležitá a nemôžem a ani nechcem bez nej byť. Neprešiel deň, aby som nepočúval nejaké dobré kapely. Poslednú dobu si viac a viac všímam lyrics k pesničkám a objavujem ich krásu. Poznám ale málo ľudí s kým môžem zdieľať moju hudbu z blogu. Viac ich je za morom ako v mojom okolí. Už je to menej ako týždeň a budem letieť domov. Nakoniec budem letieť sám do Amsterdamu, lebo kamarátka sa pomýlila v čase, kedy letí ona a tak ideme dvomi rôznymi lietadlami, ale stretneme sa v Amsterdame aj ešte s Majkou, ktorá priletí z Glasgowa. Bude nás plno v lietadle do Viedne. V Amsterdame budem mať 9 hodín medzi jednotlivými prestupmi, tak asi pôjdem pozrieť do môjho obľúbeného mesta. Po Londýne asi najlepšie (najkrajšie) európske mesto. Ak ste v ňom neboli, tak to musíte napraviť.
mickey yr a fuck up
heaven has a voice
i know that yr not like
all the other boys
i’m so tired of you
i’m so tired
mickey yr a fuck up
tied down to yr death bed
i know yr afraid of
all the secrets in yr head
i’m so tired of you
i’m so tired
(Source: elvisdepressedly.bandcamp.com)
scratch my leg with a rusty nail
sadly it heals
color my hair but the dye grows out
i can’t seem to stay a fixed ideal
childhood pictures redeem
clean and so serene
see myself without ruining lines
whole days throwing sticks into streams
i have crawled so far sideways
i recognize dim traces of creation
i want to die
die in the summertime
i want to die
the hole in my life even stains the soil
my heart shrinks to barely a pulse
a tiny animal coiled into a quarter circle
if you really care wash the feet of a beggar
childhood pictures redeem
clean and so serene
see myself without ruining lines
whole days throwing sticks into streams
i have crawled so far sideways
i recognize dim traces of creation
i want to die
die in the summertime
i want to die
(Source: elvisdepressedly.bandcamp.com)
smoke the tar down in yr lungs
only feel to feel to feel so numb
drown yr child in birthday cake
for he was happy then
tear the skin off of yr face
try and recognize it’s place
but even if it wasn’t there
you still just shouldn’t care
pretend you are not alone
inside your empty funeral home
dead inside like your casket
i see you lying there
smoke the tar down in your lungs
only feel to feel so numb
when i see you, i hope i can
fall asleep, and never wake up
tired of being awake
ill take all yr klonopin
crush them up so delicately
like the bones of my most loved enemy
and i’ll stab myself in the chest
won’t be happy, won’t be sad
but oh god it’s for the best
(Source: pillfriends.bandcamp.com)
i’m never falling for this again
this shit is done
i don’t care if you don’t care
you started it, to be fair
(Source: sureplus.bandcamp.com)
yr just another michael j faker
you got the shakes and nothing left
praying to christ to bring on death
after you lost your health
sitting here in nowhere you know all to well
everyone you know is dying all alone
acting like their not faking
or picking up prescriptions for their methadone
cut the set from your feet
with the pull of a plug
or an overdose on yr drugs
cause yr past is gone, yr future ain’t bright
and neither one means anything
cut the set all from yr feet
yr just another michael j faker
with the shakes and nothing left
you pray to christ to bring on death
(Source: pillfriends.bandcamp.com)
Never had you run so far
but you really gotta get away
you know it in the nighttime
running to it.
Caught a rising star
but then you let it drop into the ocean
now the water’s running through it.
Now you’ve gone so far
you really had to get away
you knew it in your lifetime
running to it.
Acting like you’ve come so far
the bed you made yourself and this house and me
are all falling apart.
Never thought you’d go so far
but you’re really gone and it’s been so long
I never really think about it.
You made a beating heart
Whatever, now that amber light has faded
and it’s yours to commit to it.
Act like it stops and starts
a gesture here and there
for me is one thing
but I felt it every time you blew it
Now you’ve gone too far
your urge to runaway is back
and we all know.
